I have a child with my brother’s ex wife and he doesn’t know

My name is Vincent. I am 30 years old, married for 2 years with no child yet. I hailed from a family of 3 brothers. I’m the last born.

Our dad passed away 20 years ago so it was our mom that took up the responsibility of us. She fought so hard for us to have a better life unfortunately she also passed away 13 years ago when I was 17 years old.

My elder brother, our first born was married with a son who was 4 years old at that time, my middle brother was studying at the university and I went to stay with my elder brother.

His wife started seducing me anytime my brother was away on business trips. She would try all her power but I was rejecting her by reminding her that she is my brother wife.

I will never deceive him by sleeping with her and she started maltreating me by not giving me food and giving me lots of housework to do. I never disrespected her and I did as she said.

I was scared to tell my brother because he is a short tempered man who loved his wife so much and wouldn’t even believe me. So she carried on with her mission for two years. I was 19-years-old and she was 27.

I gave in by sleeping with her (worst mistake ever). We started doing it lots of times when my brother was away on business or when their son was at school.

She became pregnant by me. I begged her to abort it but she went ahead with the pregnancy. All my brother knew was that he was the father. She had a baby girl who is my carbon copy but people can’t see it because they will always say she looks like me but no one suspected that she was mine not even my brother.

After the baby arrived, I couldn’t continue sleeping with her. She was angry at me and threatened me that she will send me to prison but I made up my mind no to do it again.

After two years of supporting her madness, I had enough that made me leave the house for good. I went to stay with a friend and I still had a good relationship with my brother even though he tried to find out my reason for leaving his house. I made up some lies and he accepted it.

My brother and his wife had two more children that makes them four two boys and two  girls but he caught her with another man on their matrimonial bed and he went for DNA for their last child because she is very fair like a mixed race compare to her other siblings who are dark skin and the result come up that he was not the biological father so he divorce her but kept the child because he love the child.

After the divorce, my brother’s life wasn’t  the same anymore. He is broke, an alcoholic and a womanizer. I have given him money several times to start business but he still spending the money on women and alcohol.

I stop giving him money but I do provide food and school fees for all his four  children.

My problem is that since I got married, my wife had three miscarriages. By four months, she will loose the pregnancy and this is really breaking her heart.

I’m in so much pain too but I believe that I’m being punished for having a child with my ex sister in law and my poor wife is paying for something she never did.

I love her so much and I don’t want to lose her. No one else knows about this is only me and ex sister in law who knows about this. I really want to confess and be free but I don’t know how to tell this to my wife and brother.

My wife adore my brother’s child, they spend holidays in our house and my brother has never question the other three children’s  DNA because he has a strong believe that they are all his except the youngest girl. My daughter, she is now 10 years.

Please advice me on what to do…